
I can feel pieces of me coming back together. I can feel parts of me healing. I can feel my smile spread across my face…spontaneously throughout the day. I have been broken and lost…I have been sad. I feel this huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders…from my heart.
I feel like choices and answers have brought the light back into my spirit.
Last month we decided on a great agency and a beautiful country for our adoption, we made changes to our adoption plan...changes that made my heart smile. I finally feel like we are making progress on our adoption. I feel like I can actually get excited about our journey…it may take us awhile to complete…but we have finally taken the next step. I rang in the New Year with a diagnosis of PCOS. This diagnosis gave me answers that I desperately needed. A new doctor was the answer to my female issues, a new doctor with a new plan. I feel like I have been given back the control I felt I had lost…the control I desperately needed. I felt so helpless with my last doctor, with her explanations of what was happening with my body. I don’t feel helpless anymore, I feel powerful. We have decided to try this new plan, to try again, something that is both scary and exciting.
Last month was full of choices and answers…full of progress.